3rd Trimester!

We have made it to the third trimester! I can't even believe it. I am getting excited/nervous/anxious all at the same time. I just can't wait to meet our new little bundle of joy. He has a personality already. He loves Daddy reading him books and doesn't like Mommy vacuuming! So far I haven't experienced the dreaded third trimester symptoms of pregnancy. I feel awesome (truly), though I do move a bit slower :) I had an appointment yesterday and baby is measuring perfectly, though apparently I am not gaining enough weight. My doctor told me to tell Ryan that he needs to start feeding me more, never thought I would hear that in my lifetime!! She did say that as long as I'm measuring on track though she's not overly concerned about it yet. I told her I have 12 weeks to catch up! I also had my glucose test and all I have to say about that is people are good at complaining, I thought the juice was actually pretty good! Don't know the results yet though...

I was also going to update you on the level II ultrasound we had. They still saw the spot on baby's heart but he had no other markers for Downs syndrome and the perinatologist said she is not concerned. She said either Ryan or I could have had the same thing as babies but it went unnoticed because they didn't do ultrasounds then. It eased our minds a lot! She said it will have no effect on his future heart functioning. We have a healthy (little) guy, he's in the 40th percentile for height and weight according to the ultrasound measurements. God is good!

I haven't meant to turn my blog into a pregnancy update blog but we really haven't been doing anything too exciting lately. Ryan started taking MBA classes two nights a week and I've been keeping really busy at work so we have been pretty boring. He is enjoying it so far but I think he's realizing how big of a commitment it is going to be! I'm proud of him for setting his mind on something and doing it, even though it means I see him two fewer nights a week :(

We are getting pretty excited to head up to Minnesota in a few weeks for Joey's Jawas Type I diabetes walk at the Mall of America and my baby shower. Hope everyone is surviving the frigid winter, wait a minute, has winter even come yet??

27 weeks

Love ♥
Raquel

Dear baby,

Dear baby J,

My task for this week was to write you a letter. It may seem early for me to write you, but I already have such strong feelings I want to share. Every time I feel you move inside my love for you grows, I cannot explain the feeling. You are already becoming your own person and I cannot wait to meet you. I have dreamed of you for a long time and I am so thankful God felt your dad and I were worthy of such an amazing gift. Speaking of your daddy, you are one lucky little guy! He is so excited to show you the World and will love you to pieces. As our love grows for you, so does our love for each other.

My hopes and dreams for you are simple. All I want for you is to be a healthy, respectful man and do whatever makes you happy. I will do whatever I can to make all your dreams come true and support you no matter what. No matter how old you are, you will always be my baby. We will have a lot to learn together as I have never done this before. I know I will make mistakes but promise to give you my all. You have me for life.

Love,

Your Mommy

Week 22

I cannot believe we are already at 22 weeks! Up until this point I have had a pretty good pregnancy. I can't say I love being pregnant but I can't complain either. If it weren't for the heartburn, fatigue, nausea, achy back, and general discomfort I would feel like normal! Now that I have started to feel those kicks and bumps it has become more real to me. The past week I've begun to experience the joy of "tossing and turing" at night. I have never experienced this before, usually I sleep like a baby all night long. When I got up this morning I was trying to negotiate with the baby, telling him I know he is running out of space but if we could just compromise it would be great :) I don't think that's going to work... poor thing is already low on space the way it is! I also thought I would share the obligatory pregnancy photos... I tried to give you a before and after. You should be thankful I'm sharing a frumpy photo of myself :)

12 weeks

22 weeks

We had our 20 week ultrasound before Christmas and found out we are having a (but you can't tell my dad!!)....

BOY!!

We are very excited about a little boy, hopefully we are able to keep up with him. Ryan is already talking about bringing him home in a Packer jersey. I shot that one down pretty quickly. Not to worry everyone but we also found out at the ultrasound that our little one has a white spot in his left ventricle. Apparently it isn't anything to stress over but we have to take a closer look at a level II ultrasound in a week or so. I am a bit nervous but it sounds like a common finding that they just need to look into further to make sure everything is 100% OK. Apparently it typically resolves by the third trimester. Everything else, including the rest of the heart, looked normal otherwise but keep us in your prayers until then. We'll love him no matter what. I will make sure to keep you updated. Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and New year.

♥,

Raquel

Baby J!

Ryan and I are proud to announce we are expecting! Our little peanut is due May 6th, 2012 making me 15 weeks along. I feel like this announcement is a bit delayed, but I think my nervousness about something happening got the best of me. Working in medicine, I know all too well that things don't always have the outcome you plan. But so far, everything is going well. We've heard the baby's heartbeat twice now and it's going strong at 150-155 beats per minute.

I always felt I'd feel this significant change the minute I found out I was pregnant, but I still feel the same. Of course, the nausea and fatigue are sure signs, but it's hard to equate those changes to a child growing within you as opposed to a virus that doesn't go away. What can I say, I'm not a "seasoned" pregnant person as one of my attending doctors told me, and I have a feeling I never will be. However, the past few weeks I have begun to notice the "bump" and am pretty sure I felt a flutter the other day. I am starting to feel more and more that I'm going to be a mommy. It's a weird yet exciting feeling. I have also noticed an even stronger bond between my husband and I, he is such a wonderful man and I am so excited to see him as a father because I know he's going to be good one. I am one lucky girl.

We love you already baby and can't wait to see your beautiful face!

Baby's first picture:

♥ Raquel and Ryan

The Match

I will know tomorrow at noon where I have matched for residency and will spend the next four years of my life! I am not nervous anymore. Whatever the outcome, I know it is what God intends for Ryan and I. I am just so honored that any program believed in me enough to give me the opportunity to learn pathology at their institution. Every hour of studying, ounce of sweat shed, moment I felt like I couldn't do it anymore, sick person I had to fly next to, and time missed with my family has led me to this point. For once I am not ashamed to admit that I am damn proud of myself; I could shout it from the rooftops! The humors within me are placid tonight, nothing can shake me now, regardless of the outcome tomorrow. I will keep you updated!

I Choose Today!

One of my best friends from high school (and still is today) posted a picture on Facebook of my senior high school class. My first impression was how incredibly small our group was. I knew every one of them to some degree or another, we were great friends. At the time my class didn't seem too small but my experience in college and medical school was a stark contrast, not knowing many of my classmates. I now appreciate the intimacy we had with each other. My point? I was honestly shocked when I thought about the fact that it has been eight years since I graduated from high school. How much I know we have all changed since then. We are living our own lives, in our own separate worlds. The older we get, the more disconnected we become. Family takes precedent over everything else because they don't get adequate time the way it is. Its not wrong, just reality. I definitely do not consider myself old, but the feelings of nostalgia paralyze me more than they used to. Being part of a team. Hitting a 200 yard tee shot, right down the fairway at Sectionals. The excitement of crushes. Spending a Saturday with my mom, sister, and grandma shopping. The newness of everything. Constantly dreaming of what could be instead of what is. Wanting to spend every minute with my now husband. No obligations. I wonder why people epitomize this time in their life? Is it being young or the anticipation? Life had not disappointed us yet. I realized that the past eight years I have been living my life trying to make it to the next step. Once I pass calculus, life will start. Once I get into medical school, life will start. Once I get married, life will start. Once I pass my boards, life will start. Once I enter residency, life will start. Don't get me wrong, I have enjoyed every one of those eight years. I just worry that I will always justify life this way. Once I finish residency, life will start. Once I finish my fellowship, life will start. Once I pay off my education loans, life will start. Once I'm able to buy a home, life will start. I don't want to live that way anymore. I want life to start NOW!

Medical school has only added fuel to my Type A personality, so part of me wonders if I can just go with the flow? As Suze Orman says, the American Dream is changing. Maybe the ultimate goal is not to buy a home and have three kids. Maybe the dream is whatever you make of it. I don't know what my dream is but I do know that whatever I choose I want to do it passionately. Practice pathology with passion for quality patient care. Live every day as if it's the last. Create a happy environment wherever I go. Give back. Take pride in my health. Own my body. Love with all I have. It starts today. Who's with me?

Love,
Raquel

3rd Anniversary

What a wonderful world!

Happy 16th Birthday

Dear Riley,

I'm always sad today. Sad that you didn't get to have Mommy tuck you in every night. Sad you didn't get to be a big sister to Peyton and Joey. Sad you can't have the excitement of getting your driver's license. Sad we can't throw you a big sweet sixteenth birthday and tell you how much we love you. But, today is also a joyous one because you have enriched my life so much. We resurrected the video of you this summer and were overwhelmed with joy because we got to see you again. You were such a beautiful baby! I miss you every day. I pray you are dressed in a beautiful dress, blowing out the candles on your birthday cake, and dancing in Heaven tonight. If you see a blown kiss floating around, know it's from your big sister, wishing you a very happy birthday.

♥ Raquel

Blue Christmas

Today marks the 4th anniversary of Ryan and my engagement. I can't help but reflect on how much our lives have changed since that day Ryan got down on his knee and told me that I was the one he wanted to share his life with. I thank God every day for that. I often wonder what I did to deserve such a wonderful man, I almost feel guilty. The past two months, I have traveled the country visiting pathology residency programs in hopes to find our city of residence come July. There is potential I will uproot him once again, all for the benefit of my career... as if his doesn't matter. My husband is very passionate about what he does and who am I to take it away from him? I feel like a very selfish creature this Christmas. I understand that Ryan knew he was marrying someone entering the field of medicine, it's just a harsh reality knowing all the sacrifice we both are making for it. However, through all this, Ryan supports all my decisions, even if they are not his preference, and he does it with such love. We don't know where we'll be next July, the match process is so unpredictable, but I know no matter where we end up, things will work out because we are a team. We have decided to let God guide us on this journey. We have given up the control to Him as He knows what is best. It may be naive of us, but there is no other way we'll make it through this life. We all need to have faith. Faith that God is the light. Faith that He knows our best will, regardless of who you see as your God. Without faith, we are nothing.

Currently I am rotating at a medical examiners office studying forensic medicine. It is a great learning experience but is also very depressing, especially around the holiday season. My wish for you this Christmas is to be safe! ALWAYS wear your seat belt, don't drink or text and drive, and for Pete's sake, don't follow anyone too close on the freeway! I have learned all too well this year that life can be stripped from you at any instant, so live large, dream big, and love with all you have.

What have I been up to since I last blogged?

1. I saw a Gopher game with my dad. It wasn't a pretty game for Minnesota, but it was a memorable evening, thanks Dad!

2. I had a visiting rotating in Minnesota and I got to stay in Kenyon for the month. I have listened to Taylor Swift's new CD several times since I got back to Kansas City and every time, I think of you. Gosh, I love these kids!


3. Had a sleepover at Savannah's apartment. We went shopping, stayed up late, laughed a bunch, and realized though many years separate us, we have a lot in common.

4. Spent a week with my wonderful in-laws for Thanksgiving. Cindy and I made Beouf Bourguignon straight out of Julia Child's recipe book. It was delicious. However, even if it would have been terrible, it would have been worth it. Oh, and do you notice someone new? Welcome, Jenna! You and Matthew are a beautiful couple.

5. Traveled to 9 states, 12 cities, and slept in 10 different beds. I'm exhausted!

♥ Raquel

Currently Reading: A Reliable Wife by Robert Goolrick

Listening to: Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree by Brenda Lee

I just finished my Outlander book... all I can say is WOW! It's one of those epic stories that is so complex it is difficult to get into but once established, it is truly magical. Albeit, graphic and at times violent. I will definitely be reading the others in the series!

I'm Free FALLing

I can't keep track of myself anymore. My personal calendar is stuffed full of travel around the country in the next three months. Do not mistake this for busyness. My schedule is the most free it has been in three years. I have almost every evening to enjoy cooking, exercising with my husband, and reading books. I have almost every weekend free to expend my energy any way I choose. Life is so incredibly good! I feel like a normal person again, I had forgotten.

Looking back on this time in my life, I will truly miss it. Ryan and I would like children someday, but it is so nice to be free of commitment. Don't get me wrong, when children do come, I will cherish every moment with them. I do think we will be better parents for it, though! I absolutely do not look down on people who have children early in their marriages, there are definitely benefits to doing so. I'm probably internally justifying my sacrifice (having children early) to become a physician. I LOVE having young parents and grandparents. Life has a different energy and dynamic. Growing up, we didn't have much but that was always OK. I appreciated working hard and the relationships in my life more than if I had grown up with everything. As I said, it has its benefits.

We just returned from a trip to Colorado. We were there for peak fall colors and did some hiking at Rocky Mountain National Park and I had my first interview. I felt the interview went well and I really loved the program! Living in the mountains for four years as a free spirit learning pathology sounds pretty good. While hiking, I felt so close to heaven... I swear it was within reach. What a beautiful, spiritual experience! If I ever return there, I will be in better shape :/ The altitude and climbing uphill is exhausting!

I found out I passed the exam I took in Philadelphia, no more to pass in order to graduate! I'm on a two week family medicine rotation right now. Next is the Mayo Clinic for four weeks and I'm very excited! I do feel bad leaving Ryan behind... again. Though, there is finally light at the end of the tunnel.

Love ♥, Raquel

Listening To: The Boys of Fall by Kenny Chesney
Currently Reading: Outlander by Diana Gabaldon

I Passed (Part Deux)

Just got my written exam score back and I PASSED!! My scores were slightly lower than the step 1 exam I took last year but I'm still happy with my score. I do not know if I passed the oral exam yet but to be honest, the written exam is the one I DID NOT want to re-take. Thank goodness I don't have to... things are looking up. Not many hurdles left to graduating!

Love, ♥ Raquel

Decided

I have officially submitted my residency applications. What specialty have I chosen? Pathology. Why? A series of thoughts and revelations have led to this decision. Through my first two years of medical school, I enjoyed pathology but didn't consider it as a career. To be honest, the thought just didn't cross my mind. During rotations last year I liked every specialty for different reasons but did not feel an intimate connection with anything... until I followed the pathologist on my surgical rotations. So what does a pathologist do? Pathology literally translated means the "study of disease." Using laboratory and tissue samples, pathologists aid physicians in diagnosing illness so patients can get the treatment they need. I may do some autopsies in my career as well but overall they only constitute 2% of total practice.

The reasons I chose pathology as my future career:

1) Almost all pathologist are HAPPY people, unlike many other physicians I came in contact with

2) It energizes me

3) Potential for teaching

4) Intellectual challenge

5) I feel I can make a difference in pathology, whether that is through research or making a correct diagnosis

6) I can actually use my business degree!

7) Separation from the hierarchy and politics in medicine

8) Independence to tailor my practice

The down side is there is no patient care. However, I have realized that as a pathologist I can see patients if I want (though it will not be in bulk). Will I get paid for it?? Probably not, but that makes it all the more fulfilling. I feel as a pathologist I can channel my love for patients and people into a life of service. I will have more time to volunteer at a free clinic or travel abroad to disaster sites and give back that way. I am so excited about my decision! People don't have to understand but I have realized in life that is okay. Not answering to anyone or conforming is so incredibly liberating! With lots of prayer, God has led me to this decision. What an amazing gift! With His guidance I am letting life lead me instead of the other way around. I am empowered.

Now, waiting for my board scores is another story. I feel like I have passed my written exam but I just cannot know for sure. I am not quite as confident on my PE, I made some stupid mistakes. I really do not want to take either exam again but if so it will not be the end of the World. I just want to know either way soon!

Another thing that on my mind recently is Ryan. I don't think people realize how much he does for me and I definitely do not give him enough credit for it. He followed me to Kansas City to follow my dream because he loved me more than anything, something I have never doubted. With residency, there is potential I will uproot him again, something I don't have much control of. Yet through it all, he is still here supporting me financially, emotionally, and spiritually. I am so lucky to have him as my husband. But more than that he is my confidant, best friend... someone I can say anything to without judgement. Ryan, I love you more than my luggage. We are the real thing, the Big Kahuna.

Some highlights of the past 6 weeks:

1. Since I had to fly to Philadelphia for my PE exam, Ryan joined me to see the city. Ryan wore me out but we did see a lot. The Philly Cheesesteak IS as good as they say!

2. Going to Milwaukee to visit a dermatopathology office and Tim and Cindy. We also got to meet Matthew's new girlfriend, Jenna. She was so sweet. I told Tim and Cindy I couldn't say anything bad about them because I didn't want to do anything to scare her away :-)

3. Having my Dad and the clan come down for a weekend visit. We got to see NDSU beat KU on their home field... probably will never see that again! The 7 of us stuffed into our two bedroom apartment but I wouldn't have had it any different.

4. Started my pathology rotation at KU. So far it has been a great experience.

I can't remember the last time I had a free weekend in Kansas City, it may have been in June?? Ryan had to work this morning but we plan on enjoying the weather when he gets home. I miss my family so much, thanks for keeping me in your prayers throughout this process. It has been hard being away but know it will pay off in the end!!

Remembering the lives lost on 9/11 today as well as the men and women who have fought for our country in the days since. That day is forever imprinted in my memory. God bless the families of those who passed on that fateful day.

♥ Raquel

Currently Reading: The Guardian by Nicholas Sparks

Listening to: Is There Life Out There by Reba McEntire

P.S. I finished reading Mockingjay, the final book in the Hunger Games Trilogy... not what I was expecting. I planned on re-reading the series after I finished the final book but needed time to digest it first, really makes you think.

My Love

I had an emotional breakdown yesterday. I had this strange feeling that my World was collapsing in around me, I couldn't breathe. I wanted to scream. That has never happened to me before. Why did it happen? I'm not positive, but I have a good idea. I've spent the past month at home in Minnesota delivering babies and spending quality time with family and that was wonderful; however, reality struck hard when I got back to KC. The shock of the heat may have played a role as well. I told Ryan I'm going to start calling KC "Stress City". From the moment I got back I started worrying about everything that needed to be done. The pressure of applying to residency (which by itself would stress me out), studying for boards, preparing for rotations, and keeping the house in order has reached an epic level. Will I buckle? Maybe I already did? I can assert that today is going to be better, despite the heat index reaching 111, ahhh! I needed to break for a short moment to realize that I cannot be Super Woman, it is not in my nature. If I try to, I will fail. At least I managed to get my residency application photo taken, what do you think?

Being home in Minnesota for the month made me realize how much I miss the little things, staying up late in bed talking to my sister, discussing life with my mom on our walks, watching my little siblings transform in front of me, the warmth and comfort I feel when I am with my grandparents. I have trained myself to live without these things, but my fleeting moment with them left me wanting more. I don't know if I will end up back in MN/WI next year, but someday that's where I would like to settle down. Trust me, it is not because I love the weather. I often wonder why my ancestors decided to settle in one of the coldest places in the US, sigh. If that's where my family is, that's where I want to be too regardless of the temperature.

I also had the privilege of watching my uncle Patrick marry Auntie Erin. I am so happy for them. It was a beautiful wedding and they were both glowing. Congratulations again, Pat and Erin!

I spent the last month delivering babies on the OB/GYN service in Alexandria. I absolutely loved it. Both the doctors I worked with were great teachers and allowed me to do a lot in the OR, I was sewing the fascia and skin all by myself! It is a thrill to deliver a baby but it did not convince me to go into the field. I like it but you have to love it. I'm thankful I had the opportunity to be a part of such a special part of people's lives, including some old friends.

I better get studying! I am spending the first half of the month studying for my second set of boards. My written exam is on the 17th in KC, then Ryan and I are flying to Philadelphia for my oral exam on the 23rd. After that I'm heading to Milwaukee to visit a dermatopathology lab for a few days. It's going to be busy. If you don't here from me for a while, you know where I am! I am praying for no more panic attacks!

Love ♥ Raquel

Currently Reading: Shiver by Maggie Shiefvater

Listening to: "Free" by Zac Brown Band

The Beginning of the End

First off, I would like to congratulate my "little" brother Mitchell on graduating from high school. He plans on attending NDSU next fall to study pharmacy. We had a great time celebrating with him and the rest of the family. Mitch, Ryan and I are so proud of how well you've done and we can't wait to see what the future has in store for you. We love you, Mitch.

I have officially completed my 3rd year of medical school and am about to embark on the intimidating 4th year. I ended up doing my month of June working in an ER. It was exciting and I saw a lot but I did not like the fact that if a patient is not critically ill, they are discharged and told to follow up with their primary care provider and you never see them again. Where is the finality in that? Being my thorough self I did not acclimate well to the emergency room. I enjoyed my time spent there but in the end my mind doesn't work that way. I do enjoy putting in stitches, however... any takers??

Where is the time going? I still remember my first day of medical school like it was yesterday and now I only have nine months left. I feel I could be in school for three more years and still not know everything there is to know, it is overwhelming. I have my second step of boards coming up in August ... didn't I just finish studying for the first one? Gosh, I can't keep up with time anymore. I have questioned how much more I can handle to tell you the truth. The pressure of landing a good residency, performing for interviews, and transitioning into life as a real physician seems daunting. While listening to the message at church this morning, I decided to approach the process differently. There is nothing in life I have achieved where I did not work hard for it. My efforts have not put me into the top 5% of my medical school class, but I am OK with that. I find comfort knowing I did the best I could. I do not intend on changing my ways now. I will put my best foot forth and pour my whole heart into the residency application process, in the end that is all I can do. All else is out of my control. If I stay true to who I am, God will guide me the rest of the way. Even if things don't work out perfectly as planned, everything will still be OK. I have the most wonderful man beside me, a family that loves me unconditionally, and faith in God's plan. Everything else is superfluous.

Next month I am rotating at the Alexandria Clinic in Minnesota, I get to be home for a whole month in the summer! I am nervous and excited at the same time. There is an added pressure that I may know some of the patient's/employee's. I'll just have to do that much better I guess. Ryan, I will miss you so much! Please don't trash the apartment while I'm gone ;) (I know, you'd never do that)


We had some visitors a couple of weeks ago. Savannah, Marit, and Olivia came to spend a few days in Kansas City. I think we were all happy to get pool time in. Thanks for coming you three, it was fun. My sisters are the best!


For the second year in a row, I used my birthday money to attend a concert of my choice. This year I chose to take advantage of my fan club membership and buy Lady Antebellum tickets. I absolutely LOVE Lady A. Their music has been a refuge for me the past three years as I have spent countless hours studying to it. When they came on stage, my eyes started to water. I got so emotional because Lady A's music is more than a culmination of notes to me. It represents comfort, a way to bring me home again. The concert was awesome, I can't wait to see them again someday! Tim McGraw was an added bonus. I like his music and movies but he seemed arrogant to me on stage which turned me off a bit but it didn't deter from the overall enjoyment of the night.

Currently Reading: The Opposite of Love by Julie Buxbaum

Love ♥ Raquel

Nothing Gold Can Stay

Nothing Gold Can Stay by Robert Frost

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

Sitting here writing this, I can't help but think of a beautiful woman who had the charisma to transform lives. A woman whose passion for life emanated to all those around her. A woman who loved her family dearly and wasn't afraid to show it. I am remembering my cousin Breanna, who passed last week at the age of 28. I remember watching her give her high school graduation speech with so much conviction and her whole life ahead of her, hoping that I could someday be as good and hard working as she was. She had a gift of teaching and a love of literature that she spread to those she taught. Her spirit shone bright at her memorial service yesterday. The service was full of beautiful music, psalm, and tributes. As I saw her one-year old daughter's ponytail in the front row bobbing up and down to the music her mother so dearly loved, I knew that her love would live on through it all. A beautiful woman gone too soon, now in the arms of our Lord in a land of bountiful grace. We will love and miss you always, Breanna!

I read this recently and wanted to share it also.
Poem written by Mrs. J.C. Yule,

A voice missed by the dear home-hearth--
A voice of music and gentle mirth--
A voice whose lingering sweetness long
Will float through many a Sabbath song,
And many a hallowed, evening hymn,
Tenderly breathed in the twilight dim!
--But that missing voice, with a richer tone,
Is heard in the anthems before the throne;
And another voice and another lyre,
Are added now to the angel-choir

A form is missed in the hour of prayer,
At the altar, now, there's an empty chair,
Where one lonely pleader hath scarcely won
Strength, e'en yet, for "_Thy will be done!_"
--But that missing form in its saintly dress
Of Christ's unsullied righteousness,
Bows with worshipful accents sweet,
Where angels bow at the Saviour's feet

A step is missed by the cradle bed
Where an infant nestles its sleeping head--
Smiling, perchance, in his baby rest,
Deeming his pillow her gentle breast--
But the feet that moved with a soundless tread
In the calm still night by that cradle bed,
Beyond the waters of death now stand

Mid the fadeless flowers of the Heavenly land O heart, sore pierced by the fatal dart--
O, wounded, suffering, bleeding heart--
More than all others doomed to miss
The glance, the accent, the smile, the kiss,--
Nothing is lost that you miss to day--
Not even the beautiful, death cold clay
But Jesus guards it with watchful eye,
Soon to restore it no more to die,
Clothed in the bloom of immortal life,
The sinless mother, the sainted wife!

♥ Raquel

Listening To: "Love Lives On" by Mallary Hope

Breanna's Obituary